airenaki

you look up at me and smile its the happiest i had ever been and still its been a while and I ask myself when will i have it again? then you reach up and give me a passionate kiss its the happiest i had ever been this is something I truly miss I ask myself will i have it again? then you look at me with those loving eyes when i look back at you i could almost cry because i know i will never have it again...

Downward Spiral _______________________ Today the world ends It all seems like nothing but failure everything is headed in a downward spiral Its starting to become a never ending trend All my days have been lost As has everything i have ever loved Somedays its just not worth living I often wonder why i'm here Is all this pain worth it? Why does all this happen to me? What did I do to deserve this pain? At this point its driving me insane Would I rather be dead? Then my pain might go away Things aren't the way they were before You wouldn't even recognize me anymore In the end it doesn't even matter...

.hate. All I can seem to find is hate Treading deep inside me All i can feel is this hatred No sympathy, no love I\'m searching for more than hate My tolerance is weakening I try and hold it down But it keeps coming back And I stand here Solitary, All alone While my hatred continues to consume me There is no where to turn, no where to run When all the hatred finally shows Can I live in a world without pain? or will it all build up again?

now that i\'ve found someone I feel more alone bleed myself dry of every loving emotion it\'s not me your dying for for you i\'d DIE